I think the majority of us are torn between the lifestyle a pre-constructed society expects/demands of us and one which our natural/primal instincts calls for. It’s not unusual to feel torn between them or lost, because they are both polar opposite from each other, so it’s difficult to find a harmonious balance between the two. It’s all about options and freedom. Be free and be happy, but don’t put yourself in a box you can’t get out of. Enable yourself and cater to both so you’re in a position to pursue either, whatever that may mean for you.